It’s been a while since I posted on this blog. A while back I decided to start this blog to increase my writing skills for a larger, more exciting project. While it was short lived, I did enjoy writing in it.
With that said, I am going to be posting every Sunday from now on to continue with that idea.
If you haven’t read the first part of “The Story so Far,” I recommend you do.
The summer of 2016 was one of the most busy summers of my life. Not because of YouTube, but because of the upcoming semester of school, or my first semester of college. Everyday during the summer I would wake up at 10 A.M. to record videos, and not just one, about five every day. The rest of the day until 2 A.M. was spent mostly on editing these videos or being out with friends and family. Like all things, the joy of recording and editing quickly came to an end. I stopped enjoying the constant work of editing and became easily stressed by it. What may have caused this sudden change is still something I myself is trying to figure out.
Becoming a First Semester Freshman- 2016/2017
My first semester in college was a breeze, None of my classes at the time were hard/challenging. On my free time I played games, edited videos, posted to YouTube and promoted my channel. During this time I was dorming at my college, but because of the slow internet, blockages on games, and restrictions in the building, I couldn’t connect or play with friends. This created problems for me, I wanted to play games with people I knew and as a result of this I quickly began hating the dorms. By the end of the semester I made a decision that I wouldn’t want to dorm anymore after the year was over.
Second Semester- 2017
After my first semester at school I had thought to myself “This semester should be as easy as the last.” I couldn’t have been anymore wrong. The entire semester was full of struggles and near fails in two classes due to the workload and professors. To keep myself ready for these classes I cut down the time I would spend making YouTube videos. Everyday I studied hours on end to learn what was happening in each of my classes, but overall, I had no idea what I was doing. I ended up passing all of my classes by a fluke, I hadn’t learned anything that I could understand during the semester.
The summer of 2017 was spent working. My main source of money during the summer was contracting, flipping, and repairing houses. While it was great at the time, I had given up on YouTube and entertainment for the summer to focus on things I actually wanted to do. It was the first time in three years I felt free from constraints. No more editing, recording, or worrying about building up a community that would support and follow. It was nice, for a time.
As time went on, I felt the need to do more with my free time. I had remembered one of my friends streamed when he had the time to and thought to myself “Why not try it.” Around mid June, I began streaming with my friend under the name “ChiliCheeseHat,” ridiculous name and ridiculous idea, I know. The early beginnings were of me wearing a cheese hat on stream while playing Minecraft with my closest friend. It was fun while it lasted, but life quickly took hold of me, forcing me to work around a more… busy schedule. Even though I had to stop streaming until early September, I craved more, I wanted to continue streaming. I had enjoyed it so much at the time that I saw it as an opportunity for me to grow, not only as a person, but to grow a new, kind and caring community.
Third Semester- 2017/2018 -The End of Engineering-
At the start of the third semester I became so fixated on beginning my stream, so much to the point where I began disregarding the stuff that had been taught in my classes. I began only studying 4 days before tests, and when I did study before hand I had no idea what I was looking at or reading. There were two classes that I had been worried about the entire semester, to make a long story short, I received a D in both classes. What didn’t help was that in one of those classes the professor gave test questions that he had never discussed or gone over. Due to these classes my GPA dropped from a nice 3.5 down to a 2.4 (out of a 4.0 scale), and as a result I was put on “watch” by my school.
Soon before the semester had ended I decided that Engineering wasn’t for me. Despite the fact that I didn’t study, the classes I had passed were tough for me in general. In most of these classes I needed extra help, or just didn’t understand the content that was being taught. I even went as far as to teach myself and read the textbooks that were handed out. I realized that I needed something more physical, something more hands on.
Major Change- 2018
Once I had realized I needed something more hands on I looked to the Aircraft Technician major. This major features a more hands on approach to my learning; making me buy tools, physically work on planes, inspect retired parts of planes, etc. The reality is, I could go on and on about the major and how much I love what I’m doing now, but After just one semester of classes, and a few moments of self doubt, I took a moment to look back on what I had learned. I loved it, every aspect, every moment, even the tests, and learning about everything, there wasn’t a single thing I didn’t enjoy. For the first time ever I was finally able to enjoy school, for the first time in my life I’m doing something where I can say “I’m happy to learn about this.”
I continued streaming through the semester and into the summer, and there have been ups and downs, but that’s all a part of it. The main thing is that I’m enjoying everything about life right now. I’m keeping myself busy via Twitch, YouTube, and now dedicated every Sunday towards a blog post. I have a great community that’s supportive, helpful, and kind all thanks to twitch. Me and a group of my friends have started recording videos together and plan to meet up once a week to record. Things couldn’t be going better as of right now. One thing I’ve realized however is that It’s important to stay busy. When I’m not I’m stressed, and think that there is more that can be done.
Thank You for taking the time to read this post. Like I said, I will be posting every Sunday from now on. If you haven’t already, please feel free to come and check out my YouTube and Twitch channels.
In this blog I will be over viewing the entire week in sections. This has by far been one of the best weeks of my life and I want to make an entry about it.
Nothing much really happened on Monday except for getting the chance to record during the school day. We had 10 periods in our school each 41 mins long. 8th-10th period I had free so I got the chance to go home and record during the day while no one was home. It Felt good.
The day moved quickly after taking a test and 2 finals in the same day. (Physics, Economics, English) I was sure I had failed the Physics test and the English as well mainly because I had no understanding of what was going on in the book in English and had no idea what Physics was all about. Once the day had ended I went home and debated on posting a video. I had a video ready for the next day but none prepared for Tuesday. While debating on posting it I got a message from Frvmework (who is a YouTuber I look up to and follow with 10k+ Subscribers). Nothing really vague, in fact it was kind of straightforward and surprised the hell out of me. “I don’t usually tell you guys before the video is up” was what he said. After that I posted the video out of pure excitement. I felt the need to make my videos 10 times better than what they were already. I wanted to give everyone an entertaining first video to come to. With the excitement of the shoutout I found my self helping my mother with cleaning out old files in the backroom. When I checked my phone I had seen the video was posted and my phone was filled with notifications. Quickly I got to answering almost all of the comments but there were was just too many to answer. I tried my best to get back to everyone before I went to sleep that night
After the excitement on Tuesday the week went on and kept getting better. Weds was the 2nd to last day of school and to my surprise a relatively busy one. Nonetheless we got out grades for the finals and tests back. I had passed Economics with a 90 and Physics with a 72 (Now that doesn’t sound like a good grade to most people but I had a consistent score of 50-60 on all the tests so I was ecstatic) It was the first time I actually felt confident in myself in a while. Me and my friend Sebastian (OrangeYoshiKid on YouTube) went out and bought some “celebration” snacks. The only downside to this day was that the line to get a yearbook was insane. I was pretty disappointed with the yearbook as a whole. It was bland and reeked of favoritism. I was only in it once in my actual yearbook picture. Not even my senior quote was in it, which I didn’t care about really I was just happy to be getting out of this school. I didn’t bother to store it away safely, I plan to burn it in 10 years when my mother can’t try and convince me to keep it. I want nothing to remember from this school.
Today was the last day of classes, I could not wait for it to be over and I only actually went to 2 classes out of the 6 I have. It had gotten to the point where all I was thinking about was leaving. However I had to wait for my girlfriend to go to her classes for review. I only signed exactly 11 yearbooks and that was all I wanted to sign. I only care about 10 people in my entire grade and had a mental list of people. I only signed the 11th one because he was a friend of my friend who I had been close with a few years prior. The day moved very slow and the only thing I had on my mind was getting home and answering comments on YouTube. This year was a joke and I cannot wait to graduate and never see many of these people ever again.I will never attend a high school reunion as long as I live because
I hate my grade
My grade all hates eachother
My grade couldn’t get a single person to agree to hold pre-prom at their house… It’s that bad but still does not affect me. I didn’t attend prom this year. I decided to go with my girlfriends grade because they can all agree on one thing, my grade is full of morons.
Tomorrow I have off of school to relax before the regents exams next week. Hopefully I can pass them, I have after all been studying like crazy for these tests. I will be recording again and trying to make it as entertaining as I possibly can.
The best part of this entire year was watching the YouTube channel grow and become bigger than I had imagined it to ever become. That was truly the highlight of my entire senior year. YouTube is something I love and I truly hope I can continue this in the future during college and maybe one day make it a full time job if I ever get the opportunity. Sounds crazy I know. Chances of that are low but a person could hope.
That’s all for today. I will try to get back to this next week but in the meantime I really need to study for the exams. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Hope you all have a great day!
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For the most part my months are relatively bland, I run a gaming channel so most of what I do is kind of repetitive, it’s the same cycle again and again. DOOM, then Dead Space, DOOM, Dead Space, let’s throw in some funny moments, Gmod, Tubetycoon ect. There is one time of the month I look forward to the most. The very first week.
The first week of the month is what I like to call “Indie Gaming Week.” I started this series back in February and made it a monthly thing. Not too little and not too much. You may ask “Why is this so important?” Well to you maybe it isn’t but to me, well it keeps me somewhat sane. When you have to play the same 2 games over and over again it begins to get to you so this is a bit of a refresher to show that there are more than just the 2 games out there.
During Indie Gaming Week I put all of my series to the side and choose off a website called “Gamejolt” an indie game a day to play. This event is more for the developers so that I can give them some tips on what to do, what I thought about the game and overall shoot to help them out. At the same time it’s also for the people who love watching indie games on YouTube. It’s the one time of the month where I feel like I can let loose and go off topic from the game I’m playing.
I love indie games, most of the time they are much different than most games and give me an opportunity to play genuine games that others worked hard on. I wish I could play them all in a week but unfortunately that isn’t possible.
Thank you for reading this blog. It was shorter than the rest of mine I know, but I wanted to keep this one short for reasons.
Once again if you don’t know about the channel click the link. Some of you may enjoy Indie Gaming Week!
Welcome back to another blog. I guess this is just a formal thing now considering I have done it twice and will continue welcoming you back. Here is the channel link for those who are new to the blog.
Today I woke up dreading the fact that it’s a Tuesday, I hate Tuesdays and Thursdays, but I also dreaded that I had to go to school. I don’t mind school but I do mind the people in my school. I live in a predominately rich town where most people are snobby and disregard the others who aren’t as wealthy. They complain about their BMW I8 sports coupe and expect people to be impressed or feel bad for them. Donate it to me then, would love to drive that around.
Anyway today is the last concert of the year for my school and I am so happy that Jazz is finally over. The Jazz program in our school is the biggest joke because it didn’t matter how good you played your instrument, instead, it was picked by favorites. The advanced band program called “Wind Ensemble” was also organized by favorites. I sat last Trumpet chair all 4 years of high school while the girl and a few others in front of me never really even played, they just sat there on their phones and missed most entrances for the songs.
This year coming to an end is becoming something of a sweet event rather than a bitter-sweet event. College will be different experience all together for me. New place, new people, new school. I really can’t say for sure if i’ll enjoy it, but I know that it’ll be at a better location away from most of the bullshit that’s gone on.
I’ll be majoring in Aeronautical Engineering which is in fact a very math and science oriented major. Math has always been tough for me ever since 7th grade, and I can’t say that I have passed with over an 80 in the class since then. Chemistry and Physics are the only two sciences that I found to be hard and with Aeronautical engineering Physics is one of the most important subjects (help me now.) My worry is that if high school physics is tough for me then I have no clue how I will pass a college course.
I have this constant cloud of demotivation when it comes to school. It’s gotten me used to failure and showed me how one little thing could change my entire day.
I don’t want to make this a depressing blog though. School could be great but the only thing I have against it is that they don’t teach you what you need to know for going into certain majors. For example if someone wants to be a Vet they don’t have a class dedicated to just that specific topic, at least not in my school. I wanted to learn German, they don’t have that in my school. There have been so many missed opportunities for me and the school system has taken away quite a lot.
If I was honest with my family I would have told them “I’m not fit for college” which is probably true. I was forced into doing my major, which i’m still not happy about, but i’ll have to struggle through as best as I can.
When I told my parents about my original plan, which was entertainment, they almost immediately said “no.” My second major would have been astronomy “no.” It just sucks that I can’t do what I want to do which is why I started on YouTube. It’s what drives me to make good content and to keep my fans happy. More than just that I want to prove to my parents that I can be an entertainer rather than just a gamer. They believe that YouTube is for the people who don’t go to college and for drop outs to make a living off of. Not the truth but there is no changing their mind about that. YouTube is the way of expressing yourself on the internet through videos whether it be gaming, skits, music, etc. It’s all about you.
That’s the blog for today everyone. Once again if you don’t know about the YouTube Channel the link is here.
Thank you for taking the time to read this! Hope you have a great day!
Hi how are ya?! If you are reading this you either saw my video or found this blog by chance. Either way I welcome you to read this summary of the YouTube channel that I run up to present day. This summary will be split into sections based on the topic it presents. Enjoy!
There will be links to videos and pictures in this blog. If you would like to follow along intently I recommend clicking on the links and watching a few mins of the videos.
Starting off in early November 2015 I had decided to make a YouTube channel. This would be my third one after not staying dedicated to my old channels (SHuT1TD0wN64 and one I forgot the name of.) After deleting the content on one of the channels I started coming up with a new name. Before the channel was created I had met a friend (SOS Shock) and an entire group who I had played with prior to making the channel. I introduced myself as Jai (Jay) based off of the nickname my cousin had given me two summers ago of “J Rai” (Rai is the first three letters of my last name pronounced “Ray”) It took around three weeks for me to finally say “JaitheRai” (Jay the Ray) would be the official name of the channel. Once the channel had been created I made a logo and a new channel banner of my own taste. The channel was officially ready for its first video, One of many I would post in the future.
My desk used to be setup on the far side of my room next to my parents wall and as many of you could probably tell it was NOT the ideal place to have my desk. To try and combat the noise from escaping my room I flipped my mattress up on it’s side and used it as a sound barrier between my door and me. The other problem came when my older sister yelled at me from upstairs for being too loud. Finally I gave up and decided it was time to move the desk to the other wall and invest in some sound proof foam. The following day I woke up and immediately got to work on switching the desk to the other side of the room and about a month later I ordered 24 2 foot by 2 foot by 1 foot sound proof foam squares to help reduce echo and lower sound output from my room.
The computer I had at the time was a mid tower Micro ATX build with an I5 Intel quad core, EVGA GTX 760 4GB ATX FTW Graphics Card, 24 GB RAM (most given to me by my brother), Corsair 750 Watt power Supply, 2TB of space, 24 inch monitor, Turtle beach headset (most uncomfortable headset,) a cheap condenser microphone, Scarlet 2i2 Interface, Logitech Webcam and a standard keyboard and mouse. I had saved up for the entire setup the summer going into my Freshman year of high school thinking I was going to make music. $2576 in its entirety. I used Bandicam to record and a program called Cyberlink Power Director 12 to edit my videos because at the time it was all I could use.
A Bit of Background
Around 3 years before I thought about YouTube again I was invited to play bass in a band the start of my freshman year. I learned bass in about 2 months using a program called “RockSmith” Fortunately the band broke up in the middle of Sophomore year after making no original songs or recording any covers at all thus being an utter waste of time. However, this left me with a huge passion for music. I continued playing my bass and bought an Acoustic bass, 5 string bass and 6 string guitar by the end of Sophomore year and made a few songs that I lost in a hard drive crash just a few months ago. With all of that going on I also met my girlfriend, Melanie, who has been super supportive of the entire YouTube and music scene so far.
The Road to 100
Starting out I had no sense of hope in the channel. My first video was with SoS Shock, we decided to do a Minecraft series to help me off my feet and get a taste of what YouTube would really be like. My first ever video was posted on November 9th and was titled “Why Did We Start This at Night!?” The quality at the time was nothing to be proud of. The commentary was Mundane, the video quality was fuzzy, the facecam was too big for the screen and the cuts were badly placed. The bond between me and SoS didn’t last very long as he wanted to do all Minecraft and I wanted to do different games and not just Minecraft and after talking over it we went our separate ways. It took me a while to learn from the mistakes I had made doing the Minecraft series. Shortly after I had started my Fallout 4 series I played around with cut commentary and made “Modern Warfare 2 Bots Funny Moments 1” which was a success for the channel but I never made another one.
The first month was slow which I expected, a gain of 16 subscribers. I played around with videos doing more funny moments and continuing with various series and a monthly recap to keep things refreshed so I could see where I started in the future. Just before the end of the second month I made a video titled “Warning Bad Jumpscare” which blew up just a few hours after I had posted it. At the time 300 views was a lot for the channel and the video stayed as the most popular video for months after it was posted but the best part came the day after. A YouTube channel by the name of “Jebus Gaming” (Who no longer exists) surprised me with a shoutout, it was so unexpected that when I found out I was shaking and smiling like a mad man and even put the video in my December Recap. By the end of January the channel had reached 37 subscribers but I had no idea what was about to happen to the channel in the coming weeks.
Just after the month had ended I started seeing some amazing growth on the channel gaining about 20 subscribers in 2 weeks. This brought the channel from the 30 subscriber goal to the 50 subscriber goal then from 50 subs to 70 subs just a week and a half later. Just after the 100th video I started a series called “Indie Gaming Week” where I would put all of my series to the side and randomly pick a game a day off of a website called “GameJolt.” I started to notice a change in me as a commentator and as a person. I started realizing why I wanted to do YouTube, to help those who are going to through tough times and need a pick up or a happy moment to keep them going. It became more than just posting videos and became more of a for the community aspect which I later put in my channel banner.
Toward the middle of January I found this YouTuber whose name at the time was “BigTinyTimTim Tim.” At first I thought he was trying to be like JackSepticEye but later realized he too had good intentions on YouTube. We talked, a bit reluctant at first, but then got into talking about doing a collab:
Me “Garry’s mod?”
Austyn “hmm anything else?”
Austyn “Don’t have that yet”
Me “hmm… Killing Floor 2?”
Austyn “YES WE HAVE TO”
Me “Awesome! I’ll try to set up a server”
Getting ready for the collaboration was the easy part, actually doing it became a hassle. We both experienced problems with our recording softwares and each had a bit of a hard time with lag. At the time he had close to 100 subscribers and I had close to 70 subscribers. When the collaboration had ended we became best friends and still to this day talk almost everyday.
The channel hit 100 subscribers on February 21, 2016. An amazing milestone for sure considering I never thought we would even reach the 30 sub mark when I first started. I finally felt a bit of hope after that day as the channel approached the 110 mark just a few days after.
At the start of this “gap” I felt extremely confident in the channel as it was growing at such an amazing pace. That confidence would be short lived once news of my grandmother got around to me. My grandmother from my mothers side had been admitted into the hospital for a fractured hip and as if it couldn’t get any worse my grandmother from my fathers side had also been in the hospital for an eye infection after her lasik eye surgery. I felt defeated, beat to the ground and even missed a few days of posting because of it. After making an extremely depressing video my girlfriend talked some sense into me and I took it down. Later that week I released a video stating that “I will have to cut back on posting videos for now because of certain events in my life” The slow in the amount of subs gained also got to me.
If it weren’t for Austyn being there for me I would have deleted my YouTube account altogether and moved on with my life. The end of the depressing “gap” came when we did a Gmod Horror map together which really showed me that the subscribers do care about the channel and that if I had deleted the channel I would have let the people who watch the videos down along with my friends. At the end of March the channel was at 114 subs but the “gap” had closed and that was what was important to me. I needed to rebuild that confidence and get myself back.
If you had told me when I started this channel that in 6 months the channel would be at 200 subscribers I would have laughed and said that you’re crazy. Once the “gap” had closed it was time to move on with a new, happier chapter. I rebooted the Dead Space series which was well needed considering the original one was of terrible quality. I began anticipating new games coming out and started to see the more fun, wild side of me burst out while I recorded sometimes taking it too far.I created a new logo and a new channel banner and started getting better with my video thumbnails.
I’ll be honest, i’m not sure what it was that helped me reach the 200 mark but I know that I enjoyed every second of working with this channel and keeping the subscribers happy.
Every now and then I make a thank you Video blog to my subscribers and show them the love they truly deserve. Indie Gaming Week has become a vital part of the channel and something that will most likely stick with it until the day the channel is retired or until YouTube ends. I have seen tremendous changes in my video quality, commentary and attitude in a very positive way. I did a video blog every day when I went to Florida and not once did I complain about it even though I would stay up until 2 A.M. when I had to be up at 7 or 8 the next morning. I don’t mind going to sleep at 2A.M. or 3 A.M. on a school night because I am so dedicated to this channel and to my subs that I will do whatever it takes to keep them happy and to keep them coming back for more of what they love. My dumbness.