The Story So Far Part 2

        It’s been a while since I posted on this blog. A while back I decided to start this blog to increase my writing skills for a larger, more exciting project. While it was short lived, I did enjoy writing in it.

With that said, I am going to be posting every Sunday from now on to continue with that idea.

If you haven’t read the first part of “The Story so Far,” I recommend you do.

Summer- 2016

        The summer of 2016 was one of the most busy summers of my life. Not because of YouTube, but because of the upcoming semester of school, or my first semester of college. Everyday during the summer I would wake up at 10 A.M. to record videos, and not just one, about five every day. The rest of the day until 2 A.M. was spent mostly on editing these videos or being out with friends and family. Like all things, the joy of recording and editing quickly came to an end. I stopped enjoying the constant work of editing and became easily stressed by it. What may have caused this sudden change is still something I myself is trying to figure out.

Becoming a First Semester Freshman- 2016/2017

        My first semester in college was a breeze, None of my classes at the time were hard/challenging. On my free time I played games, edited videos, posted to YouTube and promoted my channel.  During this time I was dorming at my college, but because of the slow internet, blockages on games, and restrictions in the building, I couldn’t connect or play with friends. This created problems for me, I wanted to play games with people I knew and as a result of this I quickly began hating the dorms. By the end of the semester I made a decision that I wouldn’t want to dorm anymore after the year was over.

Second Semester- 2017

        After my first semester at school I had thought to myself “This semester should be as easy as the last.” I couldn’t have been anymore wrong. The entire semester was full of struggles and near fails in two classes due to the workload and professors. To keep myself ready for these classes I cut down the time I would spend making YouTube videos. Everyday I studied hours on end to learn what was happening in each of my classes, but overall, I had no idea what I was doing. I ended up passing all of my classes by a fluke, I hadn’t learned anything that I could understand during the semester.

Summer- 2017

        The summer of 2017 was spent working. My main source of money during the summer was contracting, flipping, and repairing houses. While it was great at the time, I had given up on YouTube and entertainment for the summer to focus on things I actually wanted to do. It was the first time in three years I felt free from constraints. No more editing, recording, or worrying about building up a community that would support and follow. It was nice, for a time.

        As time went on, I felt the need to do more with my free time. I had remembered one of my friends streamed when he had the time to and thought to myself “Why not try it.” Around mid June, I began streaming with my friend under the name “ChiliCheeseHat,” ridiculous name and ridiculous idea, I know. The early beginnings were of me wearing a cheese hat on stream while playing Minecraft with my closest friend. It was fun while it lasted, but life quickly took hold of me, forcing me to work around a more… busy schedule. Even though I had to stop streaming until early September, I craved more, I wanted to continue streaming. I had enjoyed it so much at the time that I saw it as an opportunity for me to grow, not only as a person, but to grow a new, kind and caring community.

Third Semester- 2017/2018 -The End of Engineering-

        At the start of the third semester I became so fixated on beginning my stream, so much to the point where I began disregarding the stuff that had been taught in my classes. I began only studying 4 days before tests, and when I did study before hand I had no idea what I was looking at or reading. There were two classes that I had been worried about the entire semester, to make a long story short, I received a D in both classes. What didn’t help was that in one of those classes the professor gave test questions that he had never discussed or gone over. Due to these classes my GPA dropped from a nice 3.5 down to a 2.4 (out of a 4.0 scale), and as a result I was put on “watch” by my school.

        Soon before the semester had ended I decided that Engineering wasn’t for me. Despite the fact that I didn’t study, the classes I had passed were tough for me in general. In most of these classes I needed extra help, or just didn’t understand the content that was being taught. I even went as far as to teach myself and read the textbooks that were handed out. I realized that I needed something more physical, something more hands on.

Major Change- 2018

        Once I had realized I needed something more hands on I looked to the Aircraft Technician major. This major features a more hands on approach to my learning; making me buy tools, physically work on planes, inspect retired parts of planes, etc. The reality is, I could go on and on about the major and how much I love what I’m doing now, but After just one semester of classes, and a few moments of self doubt, I took a moment to look back on what I had learned. I loved it, every aspect, every moment, even the tests, and learning about everything, there wasn’t a single thing I didn’t enjoy. For the first time ever I was finally able to enjoy school, for the first time in my life I’m doing something where I can say “I’m happy to learn about this.”

Streaming/Summer- 2018

       I continued streaming through the semester and into the summer, and there have been ups and downs, but that’s all a part of it. The main thing is that I’m enjoying everything about life right now. I’m keeping myself busy via Twitch, YouTube, and now dedicated every Sunday towards a blog post. I have a great community that’s supportive, helpful, and kind all thanks to twitch. Me and a group of my friends have started recording videos together and plan to meet up once a week to record. Things couldn’t be going better as of right now. One thing I’ve realized however is that It’s important to stay busy. When I’m not I’m stressed, and think that there is more that can be done.

Thank You for taking the time to read this post. Like I said, I will be posting every Sunday from now on. If you haven’t already, please feel free to come and check out my YouTube and Twitch channels.

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June

June has been a very busy month for me. Between YouTube, school and life it’s been hard to post anything really.

Finals have ended now the last thing is graduation on the 23rd of this month. I finally leave my High School to go off and do bigger and better things. The last final was Physics, Physics was one of those classes that I never did super well in and just barley got by. The New York Physics Regents was not as bad as my teacher said it would be, my teacher was also less useful than the study guide he gave us for that test.

The one thing that has kept me sane this year was YouTube. I never once felt rushed, stressed or worried about it, which is the way most things in life should be. I feel extremely motivated and honored to have such an amazing fan base who actually cares about the channel and tunes in every day to support what I love to do most. They are the reason I keep going with this channel and are the reason I stay dedicated to them and YouTube.

A lot of different life things have happened so far but none of which led to extreme stress or cancellation of any sort. Both grandmothers are doing just fine, I will be working this summer and making some extra money, I will most likely sell my old computer and build a new, better one for college and I have a schedule set for my college year.

The support on the channel has been insane and I really hope to see more in the future!

This was a quick Blog talking about everything that has happened. Another one will be out near the end of the month.

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Thanks for reading!

Just Another Day…

Welcome back to another blog. I guess this is just a formal thing now considering I have done it twice and will continue welcoming you back. Here is the channel link for those who are new to the blog.

Today I woke up dreading the fact that it’s a Tuesday, I hate Tuesdays and Thursdays, but I also dreaded that I had to go to school. I don’t mind school but I do mind the people in my school. I live in a predominately rich town where most people are snobby and disregard the others who aren’t as wealthy. They complain about their BMW I8 sports coupe and expect people to be impressed or feel bad for them. Donate it to me then, would love to drive that around.

Anyway today is the last concert of the year for my school and I am so happy that Jazz is finally over. The Jazz program in our school is the biggest joke because it didn’t matter how good you played your instrument, instead, it was picked by favorites. The advanced band program called “Wind Ensemble” was also organized by favorites. I sat last Trumpet chair all 4 years of high school while the girl and a few others in front of me never really even played, they just sat there on their phones and missed most entrances for the songs.

This year coming to an end is becoming something of a sweet event rather than a bitter-sweet event. College will be different experience all together for me. New place, new people, new school. I really can’t say for sure if i’ll enjoy it, but I know that it’ll be at a better location away from most of the bullshit that’s gone on.

I’ll be majoring in Aeronautical Engineering which is in fact a very math and science oriented major. Math has always been tough for me ever since 7th grade, and I can’t say that I have passed with over an 80 in the class since then. Chemistry and Physics are the only two sciences that I found to be hard and with Aeronautical engineering Physics is one of the most important subjects (help me now.) My worry is that if high school physics is tough for me then I have no clue how I will pass a college course.

I have this constant cloud of demotivation when it comes to school. It’s gotten me used to failure and showed me how one little thing could change my entire day.

I don’t want to make this a depressing blog though. School could be great but the only thing I have against it is that they don’t teach you what you need to know for going into certain majors. For example if someone wants to be a Vet they don’t have a class dedicated to just that specific topic, at least not in my school. I wanted to learn German, they don’t have that in my school. There have been so many missed opportunities for me and the school system has taken away quite a lot.

If I was honest with my family I would have told them “I’m not fit for college” which is probably true. I was forced into doing my major, which i’m still not happy about, but i’ll have to struggle through as best as I can.

When I told my parents about my original plan, which was entertainment, they almost immediately said “no.” My second major would have been astronomy “no.” It just sucks that I can’t do what I want to do which is why I started on YouTube. It’s what drives me to make good content and to keep my fans happy. More than just that I want to prove to my parents that I can be an entertainer rather than just a gamer. They believe that YouTube is for the people who don’t go to college and for drop outs to make a living off of. Not the truth but there is no changing their mind about that. YouTube is the way of expressing yourself on the internet through videos whether it be gaming, skits, music, etc. It’s all about you.

That’s the blog for today everyone. Once again if you don’t know about the YouTube Channel the link is here.

Thank you for taking the time to read this! Hope you have a great day!